proble of kill or suffer

Someone knows if to kill in order that another person does not suffer or your, you will go to the hell?

you dont know me soooo

My parents fight, and all those of my family know that my dad walks with other one and I cannot stand it very much besides the fact that it(he,she) fights with my breast, I feel a thirst of blood and cannot resist kill it, aveses am a weak person and feel as if he and me father and son but actually I hate it, you do not know since I want that he dies, which I cannot stand is that it(he,she) is devil and does not resist to walk with the this woman, mas wanted that she was dying but not podria she was killed by me for whom I do not see her( great, but if podria to kill my father since I see it aveses, but that me iria to the hell and sufriria much besides that me meterian to the jail and sufriria while I live, I hate it since the life of my family is unhappy and I do not resist to kill it in order that my family does not suffer

mis padres pelean, y todos los de mi familia saben que mi papa anda con otra y eso me molesta mucho ademas que pelea con mi mama,
yo siento una sed de sangre y no puedo resistir el matarlo,
aveses soy debil y me siento como si de verdad fueramos padre e hijo pero en realidad yo lo odio, ustedes no saben como quiero que el muera,
lo que me molesta es que el sea devil y no resista andar con la mujer esa,
mas quisiera que muriera ella pero no podria matarla yo por que no la veo mucho, pero si podria matar a mi padre ya que yo lo veo aveses, pero se que me iria al infierno y sufriria mucho ademas de que me meterian a la carcel y sufriria mientras vivo, odio eso ya que la vida de mi familia es infeliz y no resisto el matarlo para que mi familia no sufra


what you think that i need to do? i think that is kill him